or smth

hi im a fuckin wreck
my head is not fuckin here and so is my heart
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feelings feelings feelings fe e  l   i    n     g      s

where r they comin from
i cant even form a proper fuckin thought, not even talkin about a coherent sentence 

im so very unsure of everything
im sorry 
i cant speaakk i wish i could tell how i feel
but i cant rly do anything can i
im lost and confused

but i feel the warmth inside me
i really do

whatever is gonna come out of this 


we'll be fine

pancakes at 1;30 on saturday hello

is it just me or has 2017 been like super intense and just a straight up fucking roller coaster?? im so messed like dude like u have no idea.

bisexuality

17/12/17
im drunk rn
like not too drunk but drunk enough i made pancakes at 1;30 in the morning, and im not even hungry.  tired. all i feel is just dull stillness, like always.  i dont feel in many directions, if u catch my drift.
 words arent actually a thing of value in themselves. they r made by ppl and thats why they matter

im not hvin  a good night
i mean i was fine before but now when im home alone it got veryveryvryy depressing

i care so much for others its fucking weird
and upsettting bc no one rly cares back

my eyes r rolling backwards into my skull

idk what is the right thing to do, bc now when im takng the path labeled 'wrong', i have never felt more right
                                  or maybe im just desperate

i need closure or a confirmation or maybe just a fucking sign bc i cant keep living this way

jebac zuze


[this post was made like 3 months ago or smth i just didnt post it i guess]