BACK AT THIS F*****G S**T AGAIN

hey b*****s 

im just afraid of blocking our blog by the best blogger.com

how r u 
i CANT imagine how much i dont care

but we are here again after months and months and we are again

that sentence doesnt even have sense okay nevermind

it is may and things have changed since our last entry



yes, iam 18 i can buy alcohol, smoke pot and drive a car BUT
I HAVE TO PAY TAXES, MAKE CHILDREN, FIND A WIFE, BUILD A HOUSE ETC.

wow adulthood sounds fun
i feel shit even now whAT DO I DO WRONG?

lol i didnt mean to open up on the internet that much, whatever nevermind

my cloud rap/experimental/trap/jazz mixtape coming oout soon

(just as daniel howell from the closet TOO SOON I KNOW)

u know what is the best with depression 
art

art

creating  

but yeah nobody cares any-fucking-way about your work so 


oh god i didnt want to get so triggered by writing this shit 

or smth

hi im a fuckin wreck
my head is not fuckin here and so is my heart
anxiousanxiousanxiousanxiousanxiousanxiousanxiousanxiousanxiousanxiousanxiousanxiousanxiousanxiousanxious
feelings feelings feelings fe e  l   i    n     g      s

where r they comin from
i cant even form a proper fuckin thought, not even talkin about a coherent sentence 

im so very unsure of everything
im sorry 
i cant speaakk i wish i could tell how i feel
but i cant rly do anything can i
im lost and confused

but i feel the warmth inside me
i really do

whatever is gonna come out of this 


we'll be fine

pancakes at 1;30 on saturday hello

is it just me or has 2017 been like super intense and just a straight up fucking roller coaster?? im so messed like dude like u have no idea.

bisexuality

17/12/17
im drunk rn
like not too drunk but drunk enough i made pancakes at 1;30 in the morning, and im not even hungry.  tired. all i feel is just dull stillness, like always.  i dont feel in many directions, if u catch my drift.
 words arent actually a thing of value in themselves. they r made by ppl and thats why they matter

im not hvin  a good night
i mean i was fine before but now when im home alone it got veryveryvryy depressing

i care so much for others its fucking weird
and upsettting bc no one rly cares back

my eyes r rolling backwards into my skull

idk what is the right thing to do, bc now when im takng the path labeled 'wrong', i have never felt more right
                                  or maybe im just desperate

i need closure or a confirmation or maybe just a fucking sign bc i cant keep living this way

jebac zuze


[this post was made like 3 months ago or smth i just didnt post it i guess]